J' Aime Manipal. Je Deteste Manipal.

So I received this complaint by my close bud, that I don't update my blog. Hence, despite the busy schedule of my (sometimes) painstakingly boring life in Manipal, at 5:40 in the morning, this brand new post! Volla!

*Karmanya's ad shoot was fun, hillarious and DAMN weird. Dreading the day Pavan puts up pics of the shoot.

*That reminds me, if you're really vela in life, type in "Tease Manipal" on YouTube, and have a good laugh at me. (What-e-actor!)

*So Andhra Pradesh's CM just disappeared. WHOA!!!!

*Chatting up with someone and letting out a LOOTTTTT of things felt great today. Just that, after we finished our catching up, and were doing small talk, he slept off while I was talking. Bastard!

*Bhairavi just woke up to have water right now.

*Rohan to Manisha : Hi Manisha!

Manisha : Rohan, talli salle kutte!

Me : (dazed for two seconds) Hahahahahahahahahaha (for the next two hours!)

*I can't wait for prom! Woohooooooo!

*This semester feels damn different. In good and bad ways. I love the fact that people I love the most here have got their own places now, and I've fewer classes (Yes! That IS possible) but I miss having everyone around at KC or Devas. And I miss a few friendships.

*I need a break; gotta get out of Manipal. NOW!

*AIESEC and French have officially taken over my life. And I'm loving it!! =]

* I can make awesome daal-chaawal and bull's eyes now! Yay!

*I miss Singhvi. Terribly sometimes.

*I'm proud of myself that I haven't mentioned Deetee or drinking in my post. =D

But I will now! Ha!

*VENKY DRANK YESTERDAY! 220ml OF VODKA! OMG! OMG! OMG!

*JD is smoooooooth.

*UB + Chocolates (Nutties or twix esp.) = Sex on the beach!

*My cousin in Delhi thinks I'm sober for like two hours in a day! Tsk tsk.

*I really hope Bombay happens.

*I really hope I did well in my French test. (Nothing wrong in hoping. It keeps the world alive.)

*I really hope that when things go unsaid, they're understood nevertheless.

*I really hope I'm not broke all the time.

*I really hope that golden sky always succeeds the wretched storm.

*I really hope I get to see Singhvi soon.

*I really hope that patience fills our temperamental hearts.

*I really hope a little wisdom seeps into our indecisive minds.

*I really hope our vision isn't blinded by patronising "words of advice".

Okay, I'm running out of ideas here.

*I really hope Somdev does well in the US Open.

*I really hope that I'm always able to forgive and forget.

*I really hope that peace shall prevail. \m/

Je t'aime.

Cheers!

The Trip

Well this one has nothing to do with smoking or getting trippy; just a little about the few things I saw and remembered in these holidays of mine.

*Leaving Manipal was too funny and then very over-whelming.
At 6 in the morning, four loving friends come to drop me off at Udupi, only for me to find out that my reservation was wait-listed. We came back, had an awesome breakfast at Cosmo and then I took a flight instead. But leaving Singhvi's house in that cab with all those people on the gate was just welling me up, but I managed just fine.
*Delhi was fine for the few days i stayed there before heading to Lucknow. I just love observing traffic in the capital, I really don't know why. And when my driver/dad/bro are pulling their hair off and getting majorly pissed in the most chaotic jam ever, somehow, I find absolute harmony in that complete cacophony. *weird me*
*Lucknow was great! Home, my amazing friends whom I love and adore, eating all those things about which I salivate for the entire sem, making your friend cook an entire lunch alone, just for you, finding new lounges, hanging out at old places, visiting your school and your Principal and teachers calling your friend circle the naughtiest and brashest yet the best ever, being the laziest you've ever been in your life, losing your mom's 10-day old phone, sleeping till forever everyday, doing absolutely nothing on your last teen birthday, yapping on your parents' phones for hours [they pay the bill, why should i not talk] and missing your boyfriend like crazy everyday just made all the shit i went through in that month very bearable.
*I went to Badrinath and this place Mana [It's the last village on the Indo-China border], and it was such a needed break from the mad summer heat. I just wouldn't wear a sweater or jacket when it was chilling outside just to feel REALLLLLLY cold after REALLLLLY long; my cheeks and nose were always red, my hands and feet always stone cold and my nails always blue, and i absolutely loved it!
*Back in Delhi, shopping at Sarojini, going to old Delhi and Chandni Chowk with my dad, drinking with Singhvi at Manipal-cheap prices [Trust me!] and having a blast, meeting my sis and her gazillion American, French, whacked-out and gay [I-LOVE-THEM!] friends, hoping from one place to another, and never having to pay cause she earns was like just the icing I wanted on my humongous, multi-layered, amazing and unforgettable vacation cake!
Cheers!

The Next Day, A New Day.

You're half sitting-half lying on the bed, half asleep-half awake. A little confused, a little certain. A little disappointed, a little ecstatic.

Thinking about what's going on. If it's for real or not.

People care. Yes, they do. But for how long? Will they, won't they?

You meet different people, make new friends, lose out on old ones. Is it fair?

You love, feel loved. But the love dies. Makes way for questions. And more questions.

You trust, blindly. But it goes away. Leaves just doubts.

You give, you happily give. But are too afraid to ask.

You're friends feel like strangers, and strangers are your new confidants.

You curse, you thank, you swear, you appreciate, you love, you hate, you laugh, you cry.

You're holding your ground, and yet you seem lost.

You've been hurt, and you still don't want to cry.

You don't drink, but are never sober.

You have everything, but it seems nothing.

You have nothing, but it is your everything.

You live in the present, but worry about the future.

You live in the present, but regret the past.

You err, you forgive.

You decide, you forget.

You live, you learn.

You learn, you die. . .

What My Greys are Thinking...

• I am sitting alone at 4 am in Anu's room, too fucking hungry!
• Rohan's not drinking till the 14th.
• I so so badly want a tattoo.
• Arjun has barred his calls.
• Ami gave me sad news today.
• I went to Deetee on a Saturday night and did not drink. :)
• I lost Abhinav's mom's number.
• Uday was too nice to me yesterday. Thanks boy!
  
• Mani finally got a phone.
• Vishant resembles Saif.
• Street Play - 9th, 5 pm at KC.
• I like my fringe.
• I miss mom's shahi paneer, paranthe and halwa. *salivating*
• I missed sitting at devas with Rohan today.
• I love irritating my guy when he's toasted.
• Dad's coming to Manipal in March!Woohoo!
• You're my cuppy cake. Aaaaw! Thanks for the mail.
  
• I want to see Dev D.
• Maa se poochna padega. :p
  
• 'The White Tiger' is over-rated crap.
• Acceptance is bliss. :) :) :)
• Will never forget last night. Thanks.
• I love Sanya's posters.
• I am too sleepy to write anything more.

Peace \m/

Cutie...!!

I am not writing this post just cause i promised someone something in a not-so-sober state of mind (hehehe), or cause am that jobless that am writing something on him, but just cause this guy has been insanely patient with me...and he knows i totally love him for that!
He's (thankfully) not the typical gujju or a spoilt brat either...he's just lazy - the first word that comes to my mind to describe him!!!loves his joblessness to the hilt and enjoys doing absolutely nothing the whole day, but still cant sit without being damn fidgety!
Hates being alone and i totally love being in his company...spending hours sittin at devas,just chatting,despite the fact our butts hurt, has become the part of my day that i just don want to miss..he's always there to lift my spirits when am down, to solve my problems when i cant, to talk to me when i don wanna talk to anybody else, and to shout and sing along in deetee (which we suck at btw)! :)
He's my cutie and an absolute sweetheart...cant get mad or pissed at him for more than 30 seconds, and cant help but have a whale of a time everytime i am wit him...
Cutie,you're my quintessential "the boyfriend's best friend"!lol lol lol! :D Cant think of the day wen i don meet you...and cant wait for
a) cheering for chelsea together
b) the day you and the boyfriend get a place of your own, and
c) shahpani all sports bar :D ;)

Butcher's hand with gentle soul, love ya loads!!!

I Wonder Why...

• Why do i go on guilt trips so often?
• Why do my friends stick by my side all the time?
• Why can't Anu and me sleep in normal positions?
• Why am i in love with watermelon juice?
• Why do Abhinav and me end up being so darn happy with each other?
• Why does Uday hav nothin to talk to me with these days?
• Why is Persie always so rude,yet my bestie?
• Why is Varsha always there to listen when i need her?
• Why does Deepak always pose in one way?
• Why do i love and hate Manipal?
• Why is understanding people so complicated?
• Why am I so claustrophobic in life sometimes?
• Why is Bhairavi so young yet so old?
• Why is MIC so chilled,so much fun?
• Why are we always broke?
• Why is Ami sucha sweetheart?
• Why are principles so easy to form, so hard to follow?
• Why do people talk shit about others?
• Why is Rohan so lovable?
• Why do i think so much........???

My Left-Minded Narcissist

Hmmm..so a few people here didnt like their potrayal in my first post...or the way they took it..so i think its pretty justified dat i get them right this time...
So yeah..my guy here isnt just a yelling breakin glasses bla bla bla kinda guy...he's fucking emo!!lol lol lol..sorry!joke!
Ok he drinks and smokes and does shit in life,but wat doesnt make him just another 'random guy', is that atleast he accpets wat he does; wrong or right.
Ok we totally fuck each other up in our heads on issues and occasions that i have lost account of, but he'll still always call or something and make an effort to get things right...and apologise when he's wrong!
Ok we both live our lives the way we want to, make our own choices and need our space, but he still comes up with random shit like the "yahoo rule"!!!lol lol lol
Ok he loves mornings, harry potter (eeeeew) and mango milk (EEEEEEEWWWWW!!), but we both love pasta, stoles, seven bees, aatman and persie...and me!ha!
Ok he hates kc and sittin on the pavement, PDA and me quiet, but we both hate MIT, fucking up at deetee, random people talking to me at kc and the number of folks who message me...esp wen am with him!
Ok he talks and thinks a lot and interrupts me way too often wen i speak, but i have shared the closest silences with him...
Ok he doesn't like a few people i know and hang out with and might just kill them one day (hahahaha!), but he's made me meet few of the nicest souls in Manipal...
Ok he doesnt deserve the shit that he gets, but he's still around for the same people when they need him.
Ok he fucks up his life and academics for one sem, but he atleast knows who he is, what he means to himself and others and what he wants.
So...Ok!he does things i like..he does things i dont..he makes me happy..he makes me numb..he makes me talk...he makes me think...but in the end, he's my guy...wouldnt change a thing about him...wouldnt want him to feel the way he does sometimes...wouldnt want him to go away...cause we both know-we both are fuckers! :) and i like him, cause he's like me...an 8 pointer...cheers!

Peace \m/

Diseased Lives

Hola!!!well its finally happenin..am bloggin!!sittin on dis lazy ass of mine,i thought it's high time i became a part of this world..and become lazier!ha!
So my first post had to go out for all my buds i know there and that diseased place itself, especially ever since it started to rule our lives - DEETEE!
So before i go into intrinsic details of how day in and day out,we all get hammered there,i gotta make a plea - any spare livers or lungs please?? anybody?? cause mine are dying!!!!
Anyway cuttin the melodrama, that place is addictive...i mean i don really wanna complain..i found my guy there, and hav spent "awesomo" times wid him thereafter (ahemmm), met and made great friends (love u uday n deeps), came across the best eva lookin dj (aatman rules...period) and hav taken wit me memories dat i will la la la..u get the point right?and of course!!goin to deetee every night in november is the secret behind my outstandin grades!!trust me...pani taught me loads o lessons there! :)
but yea..now lets look at the other side of the coin as they say...

*settling the bill - YIKESSS!!!believe me..being the last person sane enough to do dat is THE LAAAAST thing you would eva want...
*taking care of other chiks - YIIIKKKKEESSSSS!!! just settle the bill!! its easier!
*goin there at 8 on Saturdays - well, you ll be a freakin idiot of the highest order doing that!!cause get one fact in your head..it ll be P-A-C-K-E-D!!you lose your table itself,forget inviting others!
*fighting with your guy - ooooooo..stupid stupid thing to do..already drunk,and you wanna fight...ha!it will lead to breakin glasses in ur hand,tears,yelling,kissin and makin up on "wonderwall" and a hell long of a night!and the next day!lol...
*dying of lung cancer - you know i had actually quit smokin, but soon realised i ll die anyway cause of all the second-hand smoke, so i just quit the quittin part!(eeeew..see too much alcohol makes me write shit like dat last line!)..so yea..basically..if downing one drink after another wasnt enough,smoking entire packs of fags will surely help the cause - dying at 27!

So i dunno how to conclude..don wanna make it look like a college paper and deriving inferences and all..i jss know..no matter all the damage it has done (and trust me,its lots),i still love dat place..ll still call it my second home..and ll still go get smashed wid my guy and friends!!but also that we need lives outside dat place..cause its a disease..and we all are sick!

Peace \m/